life

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It has been a very long time since my last post; about nine months actually. I had even taken my blog down. The end of 2012 was not a good time for me, with the end of a relationship I though was going to be it. It nearly killed me, literally. I lost 20Lbs in a few weeks and ended-up in the emergency room. Fortunately the money I had saved for an engagement ring (I never got to ask) helped me survive the end of the year. I would have gladly broken my other femur rather than go thought that. But you don’t need or want to hear about it.. I am doing better now, but for a stomach ulcer that came back with a vengeance. During these dark few months, I simply had nothing to post, and certainly didn’t feel like it.

Ham radio did give me something to think about and keep my mind occupied. I built more kits and got better at Morse code. It was therapy in a sense. A recent week-long camping trip completed my recovery, sort of.

Dagny is gone. Someone ransacked the boat and cut out all the bronze ports, stole the chain and anchor, anchor winch and everything else of value on the boat. In the end, it wasn’t worth it anymore for me to try to salvage what was left.

The Hornet gyroplane project is on hold. It has to take second place now to a more important and useful project. I have not given up on it. It will just have to wait. I did sell the engine unfortunately (along with my beloved guitar and my planenews.com site. None of these can be replaced.) to buy that ring. What a waste.

Life goes on.. I need to take care of my health and decide where to go from here. I am thinking about either leaving the United States, or moving to another state. The way things are going around here, option one might be better. We’ll see. Bottom line is, something has to change.

Life, it seems to me, has a necessary roughness. Animals in the wild are probably the best example of this necessity. They are the perfect adaptation; the result of it. Nothing is easy for them as life is a constant quest for survival. Their instincts and bodies are perfect for their environment. We, most humans, have lost an essential element that brought us from the caves to this day. We no longer propel ourselves with our own power, we use cars. We don’t embrace this animal perfection, we destroy it. I am afraid some day, this edge will make the difference between our specie surviving or disappearing. Yet, traces of it do remain, or at least did until a couple hundred years ago, when comfort slowly invaded our lives. What leaders came of adversity! Compared to today’s heads of states. They created empires, civilizations, without mechanization. Even the horrors of war brought us strength. Not that I wish my fellow people to fall upon hard times, but there has to be a way to keep our edge, our spirit. So, when hard times come, think of them as, if not blessings, a necessary roughness that will make you a better person.